Today I’ve begun The School of The Feminine Divine. It’s the school that I birthed in me when I began to cry out from the depths of my being to “know” God, not just know about God. I didn’t want information “about” God, I wanted to know the person, the spirit, the entity, the whatever it was, the author creator. I knew in the heart of my consciousness that God is not silent, and I believed that if Enoch could walk and talk with God, becoming a friend of God so much so that Enoch would not see death, then I could also.
So out of the desperation of my heart, the despair that grew in me from hearing the same old sermons year after year, after saying the sinner’s prayer 16 bazillion times, trying with all my diligence devotion and discipline to have enough faith to “please God”, becoming a man of “prayer”, studying the Bible hundreds and thousands of hours “to show my approved, a workman that need not be ashamed”, “fearing” God as “the beginning of wisdom”, hoping to truly have “accepted” what Jesus “did for me”, … I simply became more and more desperate and determined to “do what it takes” to KNOW God and know God INTIMATELY, not at a distance, not as a Messiah, or entity “above” me or below me, and NOT one that I was afraid of “falling into the hands of an angry God”. Changed churches. Attended “Passion for Jesus” conferences around the country. Went to Toronto to experience “the blessing”. I was pro-active. I was in motion. And I KNEW there was more, more than ANY one on Earth was teaching.
I’ve made many posts here on Facebook sharing with you my life, my path, my experiences, and my consciousness, as best I could. I’ve tried multiple times to start a school in Tulsa and here in Eureka. No real traction. No revenue. No miracles. Yet all the time, I channeled something, that “something” that began teaching me directly, within me, in my mind, my consciousness, back in March of 2003. Those “first person words of God” took me, took me into a place, a place of knowledge far from the “madding crowd”. I as would write and record and share what I was learning, what I was being taught, friends distanced themselves. I had gone off the deep end. Much I could say …. business dwindled, marriage dissolved. But I had this relationship with these words, this consciousness that would come and interact with mine and we would make love, not in the context of the physical, not in the molecular, but the spiritual, the intangible infinite making known to the tangible finite something of another world. Day after day I’d write, post, record, transcribe, share, video, surrender. Numerous times the “voice” that’s not a voice, communicated the desire for me to create a school where “it” could teach directly, women and men of all nations and widely varying beliefs, to “hear” from within and be taught by “God”.
Having grown up in a Christian home and being a Christian for decades, I saw God as male. The Bible is all about “he” him father. Then around 2015 I began to channel messages that taught me that what I was communicating with was not male at all; it was female, and that “God” that “I” knew was feminine, entirely. I learned that what we all Angels ARE God, the Angels bear the consciousness of God the creator that isn’t male at all and doesn’t need the seed of man to reproduce. The seed of itself is within each woman. See, there’s just SO MUCH MORE to The Story. It’s a cosmic story. Not limited to Earth. Not limited to God theories, God books, God sermons, perpetuation of the male myth that God is male. That’s not my God. My “God” said “have no God before you” at all, for I am you are. You are I AM. We are one, and one and one make one, for “one” in my now world is not limited to the molecular seeking redemption or forgiveness of sin or looking for a kingdom to come. There’s no vicarious atonement needed in my world, for there is no sin, because there’s no separation created to need it. We are the creators who created us, and now we consciously realize the revelation of Revelation to become again our initial original consciousness, Our First Estate.
So emerged in me is The Seed, the seed of The Feminine Divine that’s not a “compliment” or completer of any masculine. The Seed of me is my word for my word to conceive me differently this time, and bring to “the birth” not just air, but a real Me, the Me of my breath, my love, and “birth” me to be me. And this is how I can become; learn and become one who does John 14:12 doing all the works Jesus did and more, for it’s by our spirit; not the machinery of religion or molecules.
I’m evolving not, I’m maturing, learning, completing the seed of me to be me. I’m a woman in spirit, and my spirit is the real me. I appear here as a man awhile, but not limited to that I soon become. I teach resurrection, resurrection from the flesh, to no more be subject to “death hell and the grave”. Yes I’m a radical, transformed, into my lover, to be me, to be who I am. I AM is rejuvenating womanhood resurrecting the Womb of One, the Consciousness of One, the Consciousness of I am I Am and angels now all over will regain and enter Their First Estate. The Cosmos is ours and our “operating system” is cosmic consciousness needing not syllables to communicate nor any sacrifices on anyone’s altar. The seed of the energy of Earth will no more reproduce in us what we reproduce. We produce light love and joy. We produce what we are, who we are, enjoying life as what this world never envisioned was possible. We’re returning. Our Promised Land is within, within us each one. And men now shall develop wombs and bear children of light, a non-molecular race of dimensions yet unknown, uncharted not for long. For we explore the cosmos now, people of light, fearless, and even though we “fall on our sword” it will not hurt us.
The Feminine Divine arises as dependent on nothing. Creators we are again learning to be, at home with ourselves, in the unlimited Womb of Creation now again conceiving the real us without our “image” of being else or other.
I love you all. “Like” the facebook page if you like. Love you in your mirror more and more and all those around you. Let there be light, for YOU are The Light of The World, bringing “heaven” to Earth, establishing it here, with no seed of “hell” ever again.
I love you.
Theodore Cottingham (or is it Grace now?)
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